I have a confession: I’m selfish. I do not mean a bit selfish around the edges, I mean deep inside I am all about me.
I realise selfishness is a basic human condition, and maybe I am no more selfish than most folks are. Then again, maybe I am more selfish. I don’t know anyone else as well and as deeply as I know myself, so how would I judge? The one person I know the best, my bride, seems to me to be far less selfish than I; but then I am comparing what I see her doing to what I know is in my heart, so it’s not exactly an accurate comparison.
Having confessed my selfishness, I suspect those who know me would say I am a bit less selfish than most. At least I hope that is what those who know me would say! I do know that what I do, and thus what others see, is far less selfish than what I feel within. The reason for that, and the point of this whole thing, is that I choose to fight my selfishness. Because of my choice, I am often able to avoid acting on my selfish urges.
If you have read me long, you have probably figured out that I am big on the power of choice. The tag “I_choose” is my second most used tag. I am convinced that we can choose to be different. We can choose to not do things we feel like doing, and do things we don’t feel like doing. We can choose not to indulge things within us that are wrong, self-destructive, other-destructive, unwise, or just plain stupid.
“I still see things that are not here. I just choose not to acknowledge them. Like a diet of the mind, I just choose not to indulge certain appetites;…” [John Nash in A Beautiful Mind]
I challenge you to put yourself on a diet of the mind. Choose not to indulge appetites that you know you should not include. Choose to be better. Choose to do more giving and less taking; more right and less wrong; more loving and less selfishness.
Yes, it is difficult at first, just like any diet. However, you can do it, and the longer you do it, the easier it becomes. When you feel you can’t do it, know that the Lord is there to help, if you will let Him. In our own strength we can do better, and with His help, we can do much better.