“I realize that I am so protective of my time that anyone who wants some of it is “stealing” from me.“
Yes, exactly; that is how I have treated it. It’s bad enough that I do this to others, but I have also done it to my bride at times. I tell her she is important to me, but feeling she is stealing time from me does not fit with that. I tell her I put her needs ahead of my needs, but in reality that was only when I found it convenient.
“…I also am guilty of grumbling and making sure that others know I am being inconvenienced. Even though I think I’m being subtle about it, I want others to know just how much I am sacrificing in order to fulfill their wishes.“
Same here – I really want folks to know it’s an imposition. Then if they apologise I would say “No big deal.” Yeah, like anyone believed that. It was not just those I was sacrificing for I told, I wanted others to know and to praise me. Ugh, makes me sick when I see it for what it was. It reminds me of Matthew 6:2:
“Thus, when you give to the needy, sound no trumpet before you, as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and in the streets, that they may be praised by others. Truly, I say to you, they have received their reward.” [Mt 6:2 ESV]
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