I have been writing recently about the way fear can twist and destroy marriages and our lives. Fear makes us captives, while peace gives us true freedom.
Today I got a chance to see how much of my fear has been replaced with peace. We ran to the local store, and when we got back into the car, the transmission would not move out of park. Car problems have always been a major trigger for me, sending my gut into convulsions, and my mind spinning. At the moment we have only one car, and we do not have the money for a transmission repair, so I had even more reason to be concerned. However, I did not feel worried! No fear, no racing mind, no pain in my stomach. I had total peace, as did Lori. What blessing!
This is the result of a couple of decades of steadily dealing with fears and learning to trust God. The results are so worth the struggle; I wish I had started earlier and worked harder. I urge you all to make it a priority to deal with your past and develop a closer walk with the Lord.
“What about the car?” you ask? I walked to the shop where I take my car. It was about two hours before they close for a four-day weekend, but they took a few minutes to listen, suggest a work-around, and loan me a tool. I followed their advice, and was up and running in minutes. I have an electrical problem I need to sort out, but it is good to put my two years of Electrical Engineering to use occasionally. It will cost me some time and a fuse or relay.
I am convinced I would have had peace even if I were told it was a thousand dollar repair job. I am very glad it was not, but what a blessing to know I would have been okay.
Along these lines, Lori and I have recently been enjoying Wintley Phipps rendition of It is well with my soul. If you do not know the story behind this song, please read this short account. It is my prayer we would all gain the kind of peace Horatio G. Spafford knew. (The singing starts at 1:45 if you want to skip forward.)