But I need to work on the “after effect”
This is a follow up on yesterday. (Sex will be on Sunday, I’m sure God won’t mind!)
I noticed something today – and realised it is a long time pattern. I do well as I move through a difficult/busy/stressful time, but when I hit what I see as the end, I get a bit cranky and grumpy. My bride, when asked, confirmed this. It’s like I am on my guard to be decent as I move through it, but when it’s done I act as if I am due something – or should be exempt from being as nice and loving as I can. Not that I am nasty or mean, but I am certainly not as loving and generous as I usually am.
My dear bride tells me it’s not bad, and does not last long, and is understandable. All that is nice to hear, but in my heart I know she is worth the effort to do better.
I post this both as an act of being honest with y’all, and because I suspect I am not the only guy in the world who is like this. May we all be more like Him and less like us.