Another year and a stupid number
I’m told today is my 51st birthday. (I don’t remember much of the first couple years, so I have to take this on faith). Fifty-one, really? What a stupid number! I mean 55 will be awesome, and 53 is prime, but 51? (Okay, I’m a nerd and a bit OCD)
That aside, the last year has been an interesting one. If I’d had the same year a decade ago I’d be losing my mind. Fortunately I’ve grown a lot in the last decade. I’m less uptight, and I have learned to trust God more (Really trusting Him, as opposed to saying I do and working my mind overtime to figure out a dozen ways He can come through for me.) I find getting older is a good thing in many ways. Wisdom really does come with age (sooner for some than others). Patience and compassion also seem to grow with age – at least for most. I also find age either results in letting go of wrongs against you more easily and quickly, or becoming bitter. I have chosen the first path, and it is nice to be less concerned (or consumed) by perceived wrongs.
Marriage? Better and better. I’m more sure of myself, and thus less worried about how she feels about me. She is the same, which is also good. We know each other better, which is awesome. We are so comfortable with each other – relaxed as opposed to uptight and fearful. Sex? What do you think – no kids interrupting, no birth control, no periods, and we’re both less uptight and more free.
I also like the freedom of not having a child I must care for. I love my kids and am so glad to have had them, but now we have a lot more freedom. We can do more for ourselves, and we can do more for others. Giving is great, especially when we can do it as a couple, and being able to do more is awesome.
Bottom line – ageing is inevitable, but getting old is not. I know people my age and younger who feel and act older than I do. I have friends who are younger than my oldest child – real friends, good friends. I enjoy life, including the new things going on around me – change is good, it’s exciting. I choose to live and enjoy and be young at heart and mind regardless of what my body might be doing.
What about you – have you chosen to get old? Don’t! There’s way too much life out there for that!